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| The room was gray; as gray as the sky outside. The colors on the wall
seemed to fade into each other in a bleak monotony he hadn't realized
existed until this point. As he sat down an empty picture frame on the
table caught his eye. The outer edge was rugged and stained with rust
but crying for cleansing. Having nothing else to do he gathered the
materials he figured he would need for such an endeavour. The colors in
the kitchen, where he kept the rags and spray, also faded to gray. His
eyes half opened he picked up each item carefully and put them into his
arms as if carrying jewels.
Walking back into the room he took the towel from his arm and began to
rub. Slowly but surely the rust began to fade and the silver outline of
the picture frame began to show itself. The inside, he observed, was
empty of a picture but he planned to fix that and as he watched the
light dancing on the glass he began to sigh. A deep, heavy sigh
engulfed him. It was like nothing he usually experienced. As the walls
seemed to close in, or at least grow colder, he gripped his sweater and
shivered. Though the frame was now clean the glass covered a sheet of
emptiness that he couldn't seem to overcome.
I'll get a picture...
He walked upstairs.
Entering
into his room he picked up the shoe box full of pictures that he kept
next to his bed. Looking through them however he realized that none of
the pictures would fit the huge frame that he carried. Though he tried
and tried again none of them would stay still. Finally he decided to
combine pictures. He covered a page the size of the frame with
photographs of the people and things he loved and placed them inside of
it, setting it on his desk in plain view to anyone in the room.
He walked out
(to be continued)
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| so it's 2:40 on Saturday and here I sit in my house writing a blog on Xanga. Fun huh? It's been a pretty crazy week.. I recently got a job at target and I already regret it. They hired me on the spot but then didn't call me for like three days and scheduled me for an orientation when I couldn't get there.
Check my availability! duh
anyway, I called back and said I couldn't do it; they said they'd call in an hour..
four days later
Ring Ring RING
"Hello?"
"Hey this is target. We were wondering if you could do an orientation on Monday from 9 am to 1 pm"
"Haven't you seen my availability? I have a class then"
"Ooooh... well we'll call you back in an hour"
That was yesterday.. still haven't called me back. when I call them I just get flakey answers.. meh it's ok. So last night I hung out at Eric Rusch's house with some friends and a jacuzzi. Good times. and I want you all to know how much I love pool..
cause I love it
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| it's always easier to see the sunlight when it's dark
I remember how I used to always go on this thing and just write and write; like it was some sort of thing to just blow all my sorrows on. Now it seems that every time I try there are just more and more aim windows popping up.
I hope you all know that aim is the devil.
and peeps.
in fact lets start making a list of things that are the devil. We'll start out with five things just to keep it simple.
1. Peeps
2. AIM
3. The letter "C"
4. The New York Yankees
5. CNN
Brief Overview
Peeps: These things only seem to show up around easter, stealing all the joy and fun out of kids hearts and turning it all to cries of pain and stomachs hurting. They recently began invading other holidays.. I saw some pumpkin peeps this Halloween... I'm telling you.. they're taking over. I mean come on, have you seen their eyes? EVIL
AIM: Dude.. aim has totally marred my performance EVEN IN THIS POST! this is like a ten minute thing taking me forty five. Plus it's always bringing me popups and viruses... have you ever gone to task manager and noticed that you have about seven hundred programs running and 698 of them are aim? yeah. evil (and half the time you're writing in the wrong box. yuck)
The letter "C": Pretty much the most shady letter in the alphabet. it's pretty much a clinger. It steals other letters' fire!!! it either makes an s sound or a k sound.. and sometimes it leaches off of H and makes it sound all crazy. think about it... words like cheat, or chuckle. those words should not exist.
The New York Yankees: I can't leave these guys out of a list like this. They are probably the member of this list that has been there the longest. 26 world championships and those pinstripes. SO LAME. Though I can say that I at least want them to make the playoffs... cause my October is usually made by rooting against them.
CNN: Come on... It starts off poorly from the beginning.. the first letter is a C so I consider it shady anyway. then you turn the TV on (which is always a bad choice unless Underdog the show, Keenan and Kel, or Sheep in the big city is on) and here you are with a news station trying to feed you bullcrap about how our economy is in the toilet and bush is the devil... when in reality it is cnn who is the devil and our economy isn't even going down!! it's just increasing a little less quickly. That's what happens!! things go up and down. hah
so now you know... they're the devil. hopefully I'll remember to write in this thing before 2010
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| happy vote for whatever you want day! today I went down and voted. =~) it was happy. I served my country and I wont have to again for another... what like two months? seriously... there's always so much voting to do... lol. anywayz, more to say. I've been really falling lately. I haven't really read my bible lately a lot and I haven't been in touch with God... he wants me tho. I've been hearing from him all the time. Finally I'm just forced to start reading my bible again. it seems like I'm jonah over and over again I just run from where I know God wants me. it's really frustrating because I want to be where God wants me... I just dont. I know that doesn't make any sense but it makes complete sense to me. lol. Lets see... trying to explain it... I want to be where God wants me to for selfish reasons really. I want the power back. I love being able to communicate with God and just let him take over. Talk to people and really have God talk through me... allow him to say what is true... and I dont really have to do anything but people listen. People are changed. I love it when God works through me like that. it's a huge boost of things. so lately I've really just been not reading my bible or anything. I'm totally starting again today tho... (riiight... no seirously tho I'm going to right after this blog thing) I'm going to Let God take ahold of me. Surrender right? I went to Bacon's church on sunday night... and they were talking about surrender... I wasn't really listening too much... but something that pastor bob said kinda stuck.. it was that we can't keep trying to get close to God... we have to just let God get close to us. it's not a matter of what we can do. it's a matter of what we allow to happen. We are powerless..... and really... we are powerless. how can we do anything to get into God's good graces? if you fail ONCE then he's on a totally different playing field than you. No one can match him. and think about it... that's one time... I freaking fail on a daily basis. EVERY DAY I f' up. it's not like I want to mess up.. it's just that I suck. I seriously don't get it sometimes. How could anyone I know ... let alone God.. the perfect creator and sustainor of the universe... love me. GAH it's so... makes me feel guilty. cause I know that I blow it on a regular basis. But don't get me wrong... I love it. I just hate myself cause I want to stop messing up and just be perfect for God and for my friends and for my parents... it's just not happening. I guess it's cause I'm trying so hard you know? like... I try and I try to be perfect. to do the right thing all the time... myself. I don't let God just take over. that would be nice eh? if everyone just surrendered to God.... that would RULE. lol... but I just really don't see that happening anytime soon. oh well. soon enough we'll all be where there's really no choice hahaha. or we'll all realize how stupid it is not to surrender LOVE Peter | | |
| So I love this... xanga is so cool. lol I've been on myspace for a long time... and I love it... but xanga is good. lets see... since my last blog a lot has happened. On April 19th I started going out with a girl named danielle... that was pretty epic. We went out all summer and it was seriously the best summer ever. I went to prom with her, and We went to the house of blues. good times. Then she went to monterrey for school. kind of a bummer... but oh well. We broke up shortly thereafter but we still talk tons.. not much else in news since then... my band got a new drummer. that's pretty cool. His name is Graham and he's a keeper. definitely a blessing. we have some good music... check it out on myspace www.myspace.com/withinhumanreach k soooo I want to figure out more things to say... but I can't think of any. I'll update more later.. who knows... hopefully I will anyway | | |
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